Our love is like a shotgun's bullet

Thursday, April 26, 2007

♥ 7:43 AM

today was fun ;D

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

♥ 7:11 AM

HELLO PEOPLE :D

mommy is watching wang zi D:
making me feel like i SHOULD watch it, but she refuses to let me stay anyway near the television, at all.

sad. pity pity. tsk tsk.

i have to go do my mood board for wednesday D:
or else my head could be chopped off, which isnt very good.

& i have swimming tomorrow morning D:
i gotta work hard hard hard
so that i'd be good good good :D
and so that i wont make a fool outta myself.

as for 7-9, omg, so sucky ducky bucky.
MOMMY IS LAUGHING VERY HARD NOW D:
we only just had the 2nd act and the performance is next week D:
nevertheless, i'm sure we'd be able to pull it off :D
its really good though, i honestly think so.

oh poof. do you know what i want?
D:

i think i'd go read for a bit then it'd be HOMEWORK TIME.
WORK
WORK
WORK.

Sunday, April 22, 2007

♥ 2:45 PM

if i moved away, to another place,
would you miss me?

if i went away, to somewhere you couldnt see me,
would you think of me?

if i walked out of your life,
would you remember the fun that we had?

if i suddenly disappeared,
would you forgive me?

if i said goodbye, just as we said hello,
would you be hurt?

if i cried and told you, that i would stay for you,
would you ask me to stay?

if i looked into your eyes and said i love you,
would you tell me you loved me too?

if the same thing happened again,
would we have the same ending?

♥ 12:31 AM

hieveryone.
i am
multi-tasking right
now. talking
to
my lovely,
pretty,
and smart cousin!
YUHUIMIN!<33
she
totally
rawks okay!
you guys
will
all love her!
she is the
GREATEST!!! ((:
we're
like
having a
video call right
now. and
its really fun
cause i
get
to see
her oh-so-
PRETTY
face!
and plus!
we're eating a midnight snack!
but sadly,
she's leaving me
for a
bowl of taiwanese
cup noodles!!!
))):
that's quite
sad if
you
think
about it.
but anyway, i get
to see
her
again
later!!!
yipee!! (:
and now i'm
playing the
lovely
song
from
hanakimi!
(((:
and i'm
singing
to
it. but
i think
i
sound quite bad
because
i can
see
min's
disgusted face!
ahaha
so
anyway,
i have
to
go now! (:
bye!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

♥ 5:37 PM

You wish you had somebody to cure the lonely nights.

TAN SEE YIN SUSU owes LISA TUTU OONIE BIG TIME!

So, Lisa is great! & Siyin misses her & loves her deardearDEARLY(:

Anyways, Siyin can't reply tags right now. So, yeahh. She can't blog either. So, again, 'cause I'm kind... I'm blogging for her.
While downloading songs for my sweet sweet brother & his friend. Hmmm.
Is there something wrong with this picture?
Yes, there is!
I am being BULLIED D:
Oh well, what can I do right!

So. Uh, actually, I have noooo idea what I'm supposed to be posting ;D

Nevermind! When in doubt, advertise :D
www.xanga.com/glassblownheart

Go see! Go see!!!!! :D

I have a competition tomorrow (:
I'm scared!
Wish me luck(:

Byebye. This is the end of the shortshort post. Sighhh.

It's been nice x)

Monday, April 16, 2007

♥ 10:34 AM

I DO NOT WANT TO DO HOMEWORK D:<

♥ 10:30 AM

i took this quiz from valerie's blog. sorry val D:
but i'm bored of homework D:

1. Height?
160+ unlike you lucky bunch, i grew fast and stopped growing fast too D: but FEAR NOT. JUMP ROPE TO THE RESCUE :D

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
yes, thats why i'm always so high ;D

3. Do you own a gun?
yes, when i get high, i like to kill people. have you seen my name in the newspapers before? i'm wanted D:

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
no. normally i'm too sick to be nervous.

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
as in dogs that are hot? sorry, i'm only into guys.
but hot dogs? love them.

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS MY TWO FRONT TEETH :D

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
milo or fresh milk

9. Can you do push ups?
yes. but i look HIDEOUSLY weird. note to you: look away when sarah is doing her push ups

10. Is your bathroom clean?
yes because its MY bathroom, it HAS to be clean. and also because mr. etheridge has been scaring me with all the bacteria things that we are learning.

11. What's your favorite piece(s) of jewlery?
em. a necklace i got long time ago, and my new ladybug bracelet :D

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
none. i am very innocent.

14. Do you have A.D.D.?
no. i am not in DEEP need of attention. i just need SOME ;D

16. Middle Name?
dont haveeeeeeee

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
1) why on earth did valerie do this quiz?
2) i am supposed to be doing geo D:
3) i think i put on weight due to drinking too much D:

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought?
emmmm, this is hard. OH I KNOW. i bought a very cute dress, a pair of shorts and OH MY TANGYUZHE PICTURE :D he looked very sexy and very hot. very very. indeed.

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink
milk, milo and chocolate milk. i barely drink water D:

20. Current worry?
i hope i didnt put on weight D:

21. Current hate?
nothing.

22. Favorite place to be?
on my bed, sleeping D: OR ON THE KIDS BED, SLEEPING WITH THEM!

23. How did you bring in the New Year?
i THINK i called lisa and confrenced with them. either that or i slept early cause i didnt wanna cry.

24. Where would you like to go?
i would like to go on a shopping spree, where everything was my size and all i had to do was to choose what i wanted.

27. Do you own slippers?
yes. they were for $1 in singapore.

28. What shirt are you wearing?
a polka dotted spagetti-striped top from e-spirit. due to my laziness, i have not changed since i came home.

29. Do you burn or tan?
i burn and then tan D: but i burn more than i tan DD:

30. Favorite color?
green, brown, blue. but they have to be certain shades :D

31. Would you be a pirate?
for a day or so, sure, why not?

32. What songs do you sing in the shower?
whatever songs stuck in my mind.

35. What's in your pocket right now?
no pocket D:

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
some video on youtube that ta made me watch

37. Best bed sheets as a child?
LOL I DONT REMEMBER! probably my hello kitty ones cause i use to love them so

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
i broke my arm or did something to it long time ago. dont remember. oh and i had my stitches too.

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
em 2. but then we have a portable disc player and the 3 computers so everyone can watch tv at the same time.

41. Who is your loudest friend?
this is quite hard as i am quite loud. i cannot decide. i think i should be quieter from now on.

42. Who is your most silent friend?
ee leng cause she barely talks :/

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
this is a question for egoistic people to show off. i shall not be egoistic :D

44. Do u wish on shooting stars?
no, because then i'd be looking at stars all the time

45. What is your favorite book?
OH DEAR :/ i forgot my favourite book's name! its long though. D:

46. What is your favorite candy?
mentos. sara and i finished one whole line in less than 10 minutes :D

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding?
emmmm depends on who the guy is. probably something funky like girl all the bad guys want.

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
bad day or something funky as well. something not-sad like, something to know that OMG, THEY HAVE TO LIVE STILL -.-

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
i was doing science homework

50. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
dont move, maybe mommy will think i died -.-
because mommy was trying to wake me up. i really did think that. i really did :/ but then i moved and covered myself with the blanket cause i wanted to sleep.

♥ 7:15 AM

siyin has been a bad girl D:

she has been a VERY bad girl and she has decided to no longer blame it on those wreched hormones although it IS their fault. however, she has come to realised that those horrid hormones which are causing terribly annoying PMS is IN HER BODY and the horror of it all cannot be emphasized.

she is now going to make a list of all the bad things she has done lately.

1) lie in bed and read instead of sleeping, thus causing her to be a GROUCH
2) not drink enough water and have her throat hurt yet again. she is convinced her tonsils are gonna HAVE to be removed soon if this continues
3) USE MSN SO MUCH HER BRIAN IS GOING TO BURST. byebye grades
4) lately due to her PMS, she has been writing alot in her diary which WASTES ALOT OF TIME
5) when she does her work, she does not pay attention. she dreams of what could have been or what will be instead of her very very very very boring homework
6) she refuses to sit still enough though her PMS is calling to her and begging for her to sit still, thus resulting in time wasted when she yet again proceeds to the toilet
7) SHE WANTS TO WATCH ANOTHER DRAMA SERIAL BEFORE SHE LOSES CONTROL because she is in need of drooling over some good looking guy
8) she has been hurting people's feelings, or so she thinks. the feeling sucks D:
9) she wants to scream loudly, eat ice-cream and drink up all the chocolate milk in the fridge but if she does that, byebye to her tonsils straight away D:
10) she had guests from singapore and she was such a big mean, she barely spent time with them D:
11) she realises that she has many unanswered e-mails which she know she will get into trouble for very soon
12) her polka dotted underwear is in the washing and she cannot find her flying elephants underwear D: this causes her to feel extremely unlucky
13) she has to start work in exactly 3 minutes to stick to the schedule that she has written for herself. she is beginning to think that she gave herself too litte free time.
14) THERE IS NO WAY SHE IS GOING TO BE ABLE TO FINISH HER FIELDWORK ON TIME !
15) she wants to sleep.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

♥ 3:09 PM

-.-

Saturday, April 14, 2007

♥ 1:07 PM

i have LOADS of work but i think i'd blog anyway :D

yesterday during geo, mr. brian went out of the classroom for a little bit and mr. etheridge came in, demanding to ask where mr. brian was. we told him that he had gone out and he decided to write something rude on the board.

lol, he wrote "where's our teacher?" and drew a sad face, which melo added details too. then he went away and before long, mr. brian came back. when mr. brian saw the board, he said we ought to play a trick on mr. etheridge as well and so, he agreed to let us bring our geo things and such to mr. etheridge's science classroom and everyone was all giggling about how excited we were, it was quite fun.

anyhow, mr. etherdige didnt come back so we didnt get much of a kick out of it, but nevertheless, geo was made fun.

hkis swim meet is coming up but i dont wanna go D:
cause i dont know if my grades will all slip and i become really bad. plus, i'd be so tired! but then on the other hand, it'd only be for like 4 weeks. so that isnt alot. also, trainings will only be twice a week, early in the morning.

tilly says i should just go cause she claims my dive used to be a flop into the pool and i couldnt tumble turn and my swimming was slow but now i can actually dive and tumble turn and my swimming is faster :D but STILL. it took SO much practice!

pfft. this is a hard hard choice.

MY PMS IS STILL AFFECTING ME TERRIBLY D:
EVIL PMS D:
EVIL EVIL EVIL

i'm doing music reflection now and i really ought to be working hard because i dont have time for my fieldwork D:
WORK WORK WORK!

WHEN YOU MAKE A WISH UPON A STAR,
MAKES NO DIFFERENCE WHO YOU ARE.

♥ 7:42 AM

what do you want from me?

Thursday, April 12, 2007

♥ 1:19 PM

how come you dont know what i want?
how come you can pretend like nothing happened?

oh poof, my face is currently suffering from sunburn due to the afternoon sun while we were playing volleyball. and to think its still pretty cold in hong kong D: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

the world is going haywire D:
oh dear, it really is. D:

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& i still have homework D:
OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?!

IT MUST BE PMS
IT MUST BE.
IT CANT BE ANYTHING ELSE,
IT CANT.
IT HAS TO BE PMS AND MY HO-MONES
IT HAS TO BE IT HAS TO BE IT HAS TO BE.

gosh, i just had the most idiotic conversation with jing xiang because i am trying to save clare.

this is very embarrassing.

i said;
HELLO JING XIANG
can i ask you something please? D:
he said;
yes?
i said;
how come you everytime also say hello
but then thats it?
he said;
cuz dunno wad to say mah
i said;
then why you say hello when dont know what to say
then i always think i say hello too slow or too fast leh -.-
he said;
lol
i said;
lol your funny

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE CONVERSATION?
1) i NEVER go all caps on jing xiang, NEVER
2) i dont care whether or not he says hello and leaves it at that, at least he says hello!
3) i do NOT think i say hello too slow or too fast -.- WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD?
4) HE IS NOT FUNNY

D:
ALL FOR CLARE'S SAKE!
see the weird things i do for clare ;D

she's showing me her pictures and says she looks nicer than some people in shower caps D:
thats me, by the way. because i told her i'm the angel emoticon on msn and she says that angel looks like its wearing a shower cap ! she has werid imgination, lol. haha we used to have loads of fun D:

WANNA SEE THE E-MAIL SARA WROTE ME?
:D

HELLOs!!

sorry fer wishing you sho late! bud anyways..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! YOU"RE FINALLY 14!! bud i'm still older. wahahas! =)

how've you been? goshh.. iie really miss uue loads!! althoughs we're like nortt sho close anymore's.. i'll always remember uue derhhs!! euu were always dere fer mii in rosyth &&& everything.. & how we'd always hang out.. &&&&& go tu da toilet together.. & talk on the phone && came out wibb code names fer da guys sho no one else would understand.. hahas..it seemed like we knew everythin about each other..

& when uue come back everythin will seem like it nvr changed. uue nvr went back tu hk & we nvr had tu go to diff schools. & you're always takin charge to arrange when tu hang out. and we'd be sho lost and everything without uue around. you're like the glue tad holds the 5 of us together..

anywayys.. jus wanted to wishh uue happy birthday and let uue noe that iie really appreciate our friendship. cedar's nice and all.. bud somehow iie still feel tad ie was closer to all of uue compared to anyone else and ie really hope we can remain really really close okays?

i love you! hab a blessed birthday & take care yeahh?

love
sara

ps: uue better reply wib a very very long long email ok! i'm riskin muhh life here! i nortt supposed to use com! hehes..

HAHAHAH SO SWEET RIGHT :D

ee leng just showed me her flower,
lol its SO pretty!

OKAY I GOTTA GO DO HOMEWORK NOW. GRRR.

DARN THE PMS, ITS MESSING ME UP D:

♥ 7:07 AM

grrrrrrrr
grrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrrr

today started out as a good day :D
but then it went worse and worse D:

i guess it sorta is my fault
but what else could i have said?

its not like i asked for everything to happen
how was i to know that you'd be so honest and so easy?
and how was i to know that it'd be just like a pick-up, a replacment?

HOW?!
today, was strike two.

when i went into the library, melody and adrian were dangling their hands, and they were sort of touching but not quite yet. sort of like playing but yet hesitating at the same time. lol, they looked so cute :D

i think, i'm terrified of getting hurt and i dont know what to do now.

lol, i wanna watch ge dou tian wang now.
two more episodes and i can watch something else - corner with love :D

Saturday, April 07, 2007

♥ 12:11 PM

these few days i've been feeling so proud; so proud that i've finally been able to watch television, or that my homework is okay and that i've got practically everything i wanted, that i've forgotten to give thanks to God.

i know, there was a point in life where i was very much in tune with His words, where i gave up for other people and i tried to be selfless and love everyone like myself. but then i came to hong kong and everyone was so horrible; their actions, they did not account for and the chrisitians i saw barely acted like christians. it was very much unlike singapore, where their faith counted for something, where their faith was so strong and moving. there were friends who were such an inspire to me and i remember being ashamed to face them when i did things wrongly. if even my friends i could not face, what more God?

and i think, along the way, i sort of just gave up and lost touch with God. when i first came to hong kong, i sought Him and he was there. but when the going became smooth, i took it for granted and stopped waking up early every morning to do devotions, i stopped praying as frequently and i stopped behaving like a christian. what kind of mirror was i then, for God?

today, jia yu spoke to me and told me that she was going to get baptised. i'm so happy for her; i wanna share her testimony with everyone. sure, you might choose not to read it, but i pray you do. because of her, i have decided that i will read my devotions and God shall become my best friend, the bestest of the best and come whatever rough or smooth times, it shall always be, God and I. Bless you Jia Yu, bless you.

8 years ago my aunt and uncle brought me to FCBC. At that time, I did not really know who Christ was. I just came without knowing anything. After a short period of a year or more, I stopped attending FCBC. I did not attend any other church till I was P4; 2 years after. Within those 2 years, a lot of complications, fights and quarrels were happening within my family and my brother and I were often being whacked up for no reason. Life at home was full of fear. My father would always come home late at night and my mother would just accuse him of going to clubs and so on. They would then start a fight and glass bottles and vases and anything that was just in sight to the both of them; they would use it to throw at each other. If they see my brother and me, they would just drag us into the fight. Until someone was hurt badly, they will not stop. My house was no longer a home for sleeping in; it was a house where fights start. There was once, after attending piano lessons, my mother was angry when I got back and she used an iron to burn my hand. And I was being canned non-stop. She took a disc rack and flung it at me. As I was only a primary 2 kid, I didn't dare to retaliate. Everyday, fights will be going on and on. My brother and I got used to the canning and beating we get. And all the beatings were nothing to us; we didn't feel any pain being canned. A few months later, the fight grew worse, and one night my mother took electric wires and tied me and my brother to a chair each. She was going to electrocute us to death. At that point of time, we were all screaming and screaming for help. But as it was a private estate, our screams did not seem to get anywhere. However, my father returned home just at the right time. He helped us to untangle the electric wires which were already cutting into our skin. My mother knew he came back and went to get a wire to hang herself in my brother's room. My father pulled her down to safety. After that terrifying night, my brother and I would then dare not go home for fear of being beaten up. My mother went to Perth for a very long period of time. Because of fear, we went to our grandmother's house to stay. We never went back home after that. At my grandmother's house, it was no difference; for me. As I grew up in a rough environment, I was rebellious. Nothing mattered to me. There was totally no love in my heart and I didn't care of what I said or what I did. I was also being scolded many times at my grandma's house and being canned for being in a very bad attitude. Not only that, I also got into quarrels and fights with my aunts. I was very ignorant and often get myself involved in school activities so as to not return home early or sometimes not return home at all. All these just continued for the next 6 years, I was either at my grandmother's house or elsewhere. Not being at home was not an issue to me anymore. To me, it was a joy not to stay at home and be out with my friends. However, within those 6 years, I went to other churches. I still did not really understand the meaning of Christ, Christianity. Up till end of November last year, after my spiritual brother brought me back again to FCBC, I think I would have never came back. He brought me for MOL and I was very touched by that show. I accepted Christ into my heart again and this time it was for real, not for the sake of it. I still had struggles within my family and there were still a lot of complications at home. There were quite a few times my father was really angry and did not let me go back home; I was over the time limit. I stayed over at my spiritual mom's house and the following day was scolded very badly. I had to be back at my grandmother's house within half an hour from pasir ris if not I will not be able to attend church anymore. And rushing back in half an hour to serangoon was almost impossible. I prayed really hard. I reached half an hour late. I really thanked god, for my father did not band me from coming to church. Even though I was being reprimanded, I was still happy. However, I hated my father, and even some of my family members. Once, after that incident, it was just 3 days before school reopened. I ran away from home again because my father was angry and he was threatening me over the phone; I was out with a few of my spiritual brothers and sister. I dare not go back that day. One of my spiritual brothers called home to ask his mom if we all could stay over. My spiritual family never gave up on me. And they helped me whenever I needed help. I really want to thank them for everything they have done for me. They did not go home that very night and stayed over with me. They prayed for me and really encouraged me a lot. They cheered me up when I was down. I cried and they accompanied me. In everything, or even the hardest times, they walked through everything with me and did everything they could have done to help me. Just a month and a half ago, I broke off a very treasured friendship. It was devastating for me and I could not let go of the hurt inside of me. The wounds that were in my heart just pilled up each time I got hurt. I never really learnt to let go of anything. I could not concentrate on anything I did then. I was defiant in school to my teachers and made them cry. I made lots of teachers very disappointed in me for they had high hopes on me. During the encounter camp in March, I really encountered God. It was really hard for me to let go of all the hatred and wounds in me. I did not dare to put everything on the alter and surrender to God. My guide bei xuan really helped me a lot during that period of time. She let me realize that God really love me and had never let me go; and that he knew me from inside out. There's nothing that anyone can hide from him. That point, God told me to let go of the friendship that I did not want to let go. It was really something that was struggling inside of me but I finally learnt to let go of that, and also all the wounds inside of me. For the first time, I really experience the true love in my heart. Jesus has come to set us free, to loosen our chains, to solve all our problems and difficulties. Therefore, we can put all our trust in him. "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." -John 3:16- God loved us so much that he sacrificed his only Son to redeem our sins and He forgave us. So, if the lord has forgiven us, why can't we forgive others? After God stepped into my life, everything changed. I really forgave all those I hated, I learnt to love others. I forgave my father for the first time. God touched me. So has my spiritual family. They never left me. Not for a second. I really thank god for all my spiritual sisters and especially wei ling. Every time things went wrong, she was there for me she comforted me whenever I thought all was lost. The whole spiritual family is here to run this race till the end with me. Therefore I know that no matter what happens, god will be there to guide me. And during the times of trail, God will be there for me and carry me. If it was not for my spiritual brother Ryan who brought me back to Christ, if it was not for my spiritual family and most of all, the love of God that has touched me, I would not be here today, I would be just a person whose heart is empty and only learn to hate, not to love. Cast all your anxiety upon him for he is the exalted Lord. There is someone who will always love you and not let you down. And that is JESUS...

Jiayu'07

♥ 6:30 AM

argh, this show is terribly morbid.

the main actor is gonna die soon, due to some weird diease that even the hospital does not know of, while the girl he just got married to is also going to die, because she got ran into a lamp post by a car while she was running after him, and her nose cant stop bleeding.

AND THERES ONLY EIGHT MINUTES TILL THE SHOW ENDS D:

D:
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THE GIRL IS LYING ON THE FLOOR NOW.
dying dying dying.
poof poof poof.

oh. i think the girl died already :/
WHAT KIND OF SHOW IS THIS?!

oh great. she really did die.
3 more minutes till the show finishes.

SHE'S ALIVE, OMG.
but she DIED.
how can she LIVE AGAIN?!

AND THATS THE END !

ARGH, WHAT A DUMB SHOW.

Friday, April 06, 2007

♥ 4:06 PM

thanks you guys :D
thanks so much for remembering, i'm so touched !
aaah, i think i'm going nuts D:
see; i'm THAT touched.

& this year wasnt as bad as last year
but in some ways, it was worse too.
jin got me so pissed, i started crying and i couldnt stop.
i dont know why, i just couldnt stop. D:

but anyway, i'm almost done with wo men jie hun ba, thank goodnes.
even though its really nice, its sorta gloomy.
anyhow, tomorrow i'm gonna definately finish it all and then i'd do some work before i start on GE DOU TIAN WANG at night!
that way, i will barely have any troubles or i wont worry when i watch television. also, maybe i'd be able to watch another serial after ge dou tian wang !

aaahhhh, i still have to read my chinese book for du shu bao gao. OH MY GOSH THE GUY IN THE SHOW JUST GOT RUN DOWN. OMG OMG OMG. AH AH AH. OOOOOH.

anyway, i have to read national geographic as well, cause mommy is being mean and evil D:
its so boring and i barely adsorb anything into my mind -.-
OH DEAR, THAT GUY DIED ! D:
he was the only normal one in the show D:

lol, i just called singapore again :D
i've been on the phone over and over today, which is technically yesterday, since its past 12.
but their all at simon, excerising their hands, playing mahjong. i can hear the sound of the bricks and everyone sounds so happy.
argh. nevermind, it isnt time for complaining.

daddy and jin are playing tennis on the wii again.
they act like as though their very young. tsk tsk. the ignorance of some people.
there they go, squealing away.
lol i wanna go play tennis too D:
soon, soon soon. soon i shall go.

imagine me and you,
and you and me.
no matter how they toss the dice,
we're meant to be; so happy together.

whenever i talk to him, i tend to sink really low into the chair and i always smile, even when there's nothing to smile about. i have the sort of feeling, like as though he's just there and he's within reach, even if he's far far away.

argh, the show is so annoying D:
but i still like it :D
i think i shall have a resolution list for my 14th birthday.
here goes nothing;

1) be nice to EVERYONE, even the people i cannot stand.
2) do NOT snap at anyone; they do not owe me anything.
3) think of the BEST in everyone; people are full of surprises.
4) do NOT ignore anyone; everyone has feelings.
5) restrain from swearing AT ALL.

that should result quite well, IF i can stick to it, heh.
aaaah.

argh i have so much homework to do tomorrow D:
my du shu bao gao is definately going to take so long, ah ah ah. dear dear dear. and i have MATH D:
*super sad face* its so tough and i dont like mr. varro as much as i use to. sure, it might have been my fault but he didnt have to be SO mean, grrr.
AND I HAVE TO READ THE ENGLISH BOOKS OR I WONT BE ABLE TO RETURN THEM D:

math math math
D: D: D:
chinese chinese chinese
DD: DD: DD:

AND I GOTTA DO CHINESE QUESTIONS! D:
oh dear dear dear. must chiong chiong chiong, mug mug mug, so that i can watch ge dou tian wang wang wang :D :D :D

NEVERMIND !
EVERYBODY, LETS HAVE FAITH FOR THE FUTURE.
the future, the future, the future future future.

anyway, my birthday's over now, and truthfully,
it was just like any other day, just that i'm really glad i got to talk to so many people in singapore :D

♥ 9:11 AM

i know your timing so well,

i know its over now.

Thursday, April 05, 2007

♥ 12:31 AM

YOU GUYYYYYYYS
MR. BONG finally EMAILED ME AND

HE ASKED ME TO SHARE IT WITH YOU GUYS;
SO HERE GOES NOTHING ! :D

Hello Siyin

Is this email still in use.I would like to apologise to you and your friends for not being around when you came on Chinese New Year's eve... Lisa, Xi Nan Was noti n school that day. I do not have their email address... Could you pass this on to them?

How are things with you in Hong Kong? Study hard!!

Regards
Mr Bong

bong_raymond_kenneth@moe.edu.sg

go email him kay?

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

♥ 2:44 PM

poof.
i cant watch wo men jie hun ba now because my parents are playing with the wii D:
how old are they anyway?!

now everything looks bleak.
but at least, i got to call kwoi kay kay today :D

at about 9 sometime, i called her and we talked for 35 minutes
lol, her phone records the time.
our phone used to be like that too D:

anyway, we talked about loads of rubbish
and i was laughing so much, you wouldnt believe it.
she told me to watch kang xi lai le earlier today
and so i was still laughing about that.

i think we went quite retarded.
but i'm glad, it was really fun to laugh and go all mad once again.
now if only mommy and daddy would stop acting like kids and let me watch television D:

i suppose i could go to their room
but that television is puny. D:
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

weng fong is talking to me D:
he's pouring his non-existance love life difficulties all out
*snickers* its interesting to see how he always jumps from one girl to another, and is always depressed cause they dont like him.
and yet he's always willing to wait for the girl, lol

i'm awfully glad we're having our holidays now,
cause or else, i wouldnt even have the time to catch up with them all,
or go blog surfing and tagging, omg tagging!
and now i feel all gossip-y like i used to be :D

argh, my parents are squealing due to the wii -.-
see how they behave like their age? its so amazing.

i talked to AH NAN today :D
lol i miss her so!
and she told me to go watch summer x summer, which i think i shall soon,
since joe cheng is in it :D
haha i'm so bad, omg.

and i thought i'd be finishing up my to-watch list
but today, i added a whole load more after going on wiki-addict.
ahhhhh. at least mommy doesnt really mind.

can i wait REN for about TEN WHOLE WEEKS until summer
and watch more more more :D
yuppie. although frankly, i dont wanna go up to year 10 because then, i will HAVE to work hard.

which is sucky ducky bucky because i dont wanna work hard.
i'm so afraid, how if i work really hard and yet i still do really badly?
AAAAAHHHHHHH.

NEVERMIND WE SHALL HAVE FAITH.

O.o i just told my mom my to-do list for the holiday
and she said you're very good at planning but you never do anything!!
lol and althought that is very true, i am starting to worry,
because I WONT HAVE TIME FOR MY DRAMA SERIALS ! DDD:

*wails like a mad idiot*
argh. tomorrow i'm going to be so busy D:
BUT I WANNA WATCH MY TELEVISION!
okay. wake up siyin. behave. D:

lol i love the song zui ai hai shi ni by tang yu zhe, he's so cute and so cool in all his pictures.
in kang xi lai le, they said he was the silent kinda shuai but jiro is all movement.
and thats totally true, cause jiro's movements are all so in synch and together, its amazing. but tang yu zhe is all silent and shuai in the quiet kinda way :D

lol and jiro's pictures are all SO good looking, their all so cute and weird.
AND, their unique. unlike wu zun's pictures whom are all just more or less the same.
tang yu zhe's is, at least, nice cause he has different poses and he looks cute all the time
but wu zun is all ACT you know?

like he's buff but thats it man, thats it :D

OKAY. WO MEN JIE HUN BA,
HERE I COME.

♥ 11:36 AM

how come

the people who seem to be far away remembers

while the people who are closest

dont seem to care?

♥ 5:53 AM

oh dear, i dont wanna do homework D:
its so boring and i wish you guys in singapore would hurry up and come online
so i can talk talk talk D:

i havent been so free in so long! :D
but i have jazz tonight D:
BUT I'M NOT GOING :D
cause i fought with mommy just now
and i cried until my eyes are all red and i think i'm going to go sleep again.

D:

BUT TODAY, I SHALL START WATCHING
WO MEN JIE HUN BA
by mike he !
but the girl isnt pretty so its quite a waste.
the show is probably going to be VERY retarded because most of his shows are all very lame.

but i'm still gonna watch it cause its only 22 episodes long and i'd be able to finish it :D
once i'm done with it, i shall watch GER DOU TIAN WANG !

5566 !
lol *swoon*

and hopefully i'd finish those real quick so i'd be able to watch AI QING HE YUE before school starts.
but i have to read the horrid chinese storybook which is just about killing me.
i've barely read it though D:

ah well. anyway, i'm going to watch the last episode of it started with a kiss again before i watch wo men jie hun ba because i think that guy is cute :D but his teeth isnt very nice D:

argh, school is going to start again soon D:
aaaaaahhhhhhh

I AM PRCASTINATING SO MUCH.
WORK WORK WORK.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

♥ 3:57 PM

its dead late in the night,
the wind is howling so bad outside
but i'm still awake because

1) i was playing wii with my brother
2) i showered late and my hair is still wet
3) i have not completed todays to-do list D:

i was going through everyone's blogs and i felt such a pang.
i remember all the fun times we used to have
and i miss them so much because no matter what you do, they aint coming back.

i think, i really regret leaving cedar cause it was so full of live
and full of girls. you could do anything you want.
& i had everything under my nose back then;
i knew what i wanted, i knew who i wanted to be partnered up with.. that kinda things
and i had fun, loads of fun.

like acting mona lisa with charis
and going to k-box to sing our hearts out
or talking to the man behind the GV counter
and so many more.
i saw a few pictures as i went through the blogs and they look so happy, so much like before.

gosh, see now i really feel pathetic D:

anyway, i was just talking to ronald
because he's the only person i know who stays up till late late late in the night, even when there's school tomrrow.

i guess he's special like that.
but the best thing about ronald is that
no matter how long it has been since i last talked to him, it'd still feel the same.

he'd stil tease me and tell me his troubles.
he'd still call me aunty and xiao jie
and use weird chinese words that he thinks are so cool.

some things never change. :D

okay, i'm going to go sleep now,
cause my eyes are practically closing by themselves already.

♥ 8:01 AM

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO DEAR ISAAC LOH, BECAUSE I FEEL THE NEED TO GET EVEN.

1) he said that he likes a girl, so fine. go tell the girl right?
BUT NO. he said;
we're very good friends now
very veryt
then
like if i tell her
and if i suddenly dont like her
everything go herywire
and cannot
so
i rather stay like that

WORD FOR WORD I TELL YOU;
WORD FOR WORD.

so then i asked him ARE YOU INSANE?!
cause duh, he is.
obviously if he never tells the girls that he likes her, she's going to get fed-up with him and she's going to do weird stuff, which will cause him to NOT LIKE HER. WHICH WILL CAUSE EVERYTHING TO GO HAYWIRE.
so in the first place, it'd be his fault!

for a guy turning 17, he sure doesnt use his brian D:

anyway, thats not important.
here's a conversation which although doesnt mean much to me, proves that he HAS BAD TASTE.

sticking to the colours he used on his blog, what i'm saying is green
and what he's saying is orange.
he has this weird obession for orange :P

ISAAC. so flutter into the sky; my butterfly. says:
LAST TIME MY EX GIRLFRIEND

LUCKY BUTT SUPERMAN says:
heeheee
lol yeah

BROTHER USED TO LIKE HER
HOHOHOHOHOH
heheheeh

used to like natalie or chevonne?

nat

*wrinkles nose*
has bad taste like you
*sigh*

i cant give 2 ( if i put a word here it'll have to be censored anyway, so i leave blank ) about her
OI
ACTUALLY
I THINK I GOT BAD TASTE
I ADMIT
-whistles

YAYYYYYY

-looks at you.
-whistles again
haha

!!!
*mouth open*
not countec
counted*

hahaha
sorry too bad
counted

no cannot be
ITS BECAUSE

counted.

out of your whole very-bad-taste love life
the HIGH POINT

counted.

was when you met me !
hahahaha
so

-mouth drops offf-

that doesnt count as very-bad-taste
because

ehh

that was the ONE-good-taste
you had

you know something..

D:
lol what?>

THIS IS OGNNA GO UP ON MY BLOG YOU KNOW

OH NO
ISAAC
YOU CANNOT
*hangs myself*

sorrrrry
toooo baddd

FINE I'D PUT IT UP ON MY BLOG TOO

OI
CANNOT LAH

AND EVERYONE CAN SEE WHAT BAD TASTE YOU'VE GOT

i
will
smack
you

OH ISAAC
REMEMBER LAST TIME
YOU SAID YOU LIKED MY BROTHER
IN SOME CRAZY LANGAUGE OF YOURS?

whereee gottt
haha

I STILL HAVE THE HISTORY : d
: D

uh...

OH DONT BE SHY
I LOOK FOR YOU

uh......
NVM

i saved it somewhereeee ;D

and it goes on for quite a bit more but isaac wrote on his blog that he knew he was finished from that point on so i dont see the need to go on.
besides, i have got quite a bit of edvience that i need to blackmail him already.

but, the point is that, he has HORRID taste AND, he is postively mean to me. D:

BEWARE OF ISAAC LOH EVERYONE.

and isaac, WANT THE WHOLE WORLD TO SEE YOUR PICTURE? :P
AND THE CONVERSATION WHERE YOU SAID THAT YOU THOUGHT MY BROTHER WAS SEXY?

love love love :D

♥ 7:19 AM

after a TERRIBLY LONG PERIOD OF TIME,
i have decided to once again, update this almost-dead blog
because i am terribly bored, and i dont wanna do homework
AND omg, i miss the fun D:

yes. see how lame and pathetic i'm getting.
i'm missing BLOGGING.
argh.

i changed my blogskin to this one
but as i was almost done changing it,
i realised that

*gasp* I DONT LIKE IT.

see. i'm postive i'm getting lamer and more pathetic as the clock goes on.

but i couldnt change my skin yet AGAIN
because i have this tremendous load of homework to do if i wanna watch another drama serial, which i do so bad.
its pounding in my heart,
its beating in my blood
its even ringing in my head;
WATCH THE TELEVISION.

and what better luck.
the first day of this lonely easter holiday and
THE WHOLE BUILDING HAD NO ELETRICITY THIS MORNING!
i was so angry and so whiny-like,
i called valerie and she merely laughed at me and told me to wait D:

NEXT TIME YOU HAVE PROBLEMS VALERIE YEE,
I'M GOING TO TELL YOU TO SOLVE THEM BY YOURSELF!
*pouts*

and so i was thinking what i ought to do
cause i was practically dying due to boredom and also cause
I COULDNT DO ANYTHING AT ALL.

blame this retarded building.
grrr.

but anyyway, i realised that if i dont blog
and if i dont go to people's blogs and tag or reply tags on my blog,
which by the way, is HORRID AND ABSOLUTELY MEAN AND STUPID,
i wont be so close to you guys anymore
and I MISS YOU SO MUCH! D:

AND THAT IS WHY I'M TOTALLY GONNA BE A DEVOTED BLOGGER
SO DEVOTED THAT I'D BLOG EVEN IF IT KILLS ME.
okay maybe not.
but i'd be EXTRA devoted, you wont even believe what hit you.

oh geesh, this is so lame now.
i'm pouring out my heart to this almost-dead blog.
D:

QUICK COME HOME FROM SCHOOL LISA !
i have this sudden urge to call her.
i havent spoken to her in so long, its freaky.

but then you guys are all the way in singapore
having fun D:
while i'm hearing HAVING HOLIDAYS
and NEARLY CRYING TO TEARS D:

see how ironic this is?!
DO YOU SEE?!

my underwear today is polka dotted :D
*shrugs* just thought you would like to know.

and to prove to you how unfortunately lame and pathetic i am,
i shall tell you what i just did D:

to ensure that all the links would be working,
i went through each and every link, clicking and tagging.
but i gave up at B,
which is TERRIBLY annyoing because that is barely anything.

D:
):
:/

I HAVE NOTHING TO DO!
save me. save me. oh save me.

do you think lisa is back home already?
i dont.
she's having track.
i think.

you can never be sure about this kind of things D:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

i just watched it started with a kiss.
OMG IT WAS SO ANNOYING.
they only got together in the last disc
and i felt like screaming through out the whole thing.
but once i started how could i possibly stop?!

and at least the girl was so stupid she was funny.
but TAY XI NAN?
it was not nice.
OH I MISS XI NAN SO MUCH NOW :D